Lesson Learned for the Day

July 17, 2011

Woke up late, wasn’t able to attend worship service, too bad, good thing though I was able to attend special Thanksgiving. As usual my friend was not there so alone again. No one to talk No one to ask and no one to laugh with, but just fine at least I had done my duty.  Sad to say I miss her call anyways I’ll just sms her later, I can feel she is in distress maybe she needs my advice, and I think I should have to admonish her but I should see to do it in the right way, may God help her. The whole gathering was finish late, but not so late as I expected. I feel so bad about the topic  today, I was so moved that I feel so lame, how could I have been so lame. How could I have been so irresponsible. I know my duty, the only duty I can do ever since I was working but I realize how many times I fail. Feeling so guilty. It made made me see that there are more important things to attend to than being so dejected with my life issues. I think i should stop being depress and I should believe in God because he knows everything. He knows what’s good for me. So I should always bear in mind that everything happens for a reason. I may not know the reason but I know it for my own good. God knows what I want, and if ever I can’t have it, then I have to accept it. “If His heart belongs to me then he will be for me, no matter what happens, if not then He will never be...”

Lesson learned for the day:

All human no matter what place or culture are all same. They might  have differences in beliefs and in attitudes but all Man have same feelings.  One thing a Man can have as his  Pride is the feeling of being valued. The feeling of being useful and feeling of being needed is one of the greatest achievement a man can have. Most people now a days don’t see the importance of valuing a person. Neither they know how to value a person, maybe because they don’t know and see the essence of it. If one knows the value of one thing he/she will never scatter it anywhere rather keep it, to insure its safety for fear of loosing it. It goes well with human also. One must know how to value a person. Any kind of relationship must be nurtured and cared. Everyone must learn not to take anyone for granted, if not then they will never realized the importance of one person, and later regret before they realize that they lost a gem...

Pride or Apathy

July 10, 2011

     Long day today, no time for enjoyment and leisure. I don't mind, I am not in the mood to have fun nor do anything anyway. I just wanna caress these days of emptiness. No reason to be happy at all.

     There was not any signs of showing up.Maybe hide and seek was the new plan of game. I am not surprise anymore as I know him as a man of great pride. I don't have the guts to disturb him either, nor demand for any reason or even just to ask some questions, as his indifference was in its highest level already. It is a shame on my side to demand or expect anything as I can't see any feelings, even a littlest form of compassion.

     It is depressing but nothing I can do than to respect his will. It is not my choice not to bother him nor feel detached from him. It his pride or apathy that oblige me to do  so. I may not be sure if its pride or apathy but one thing I am sure, it's kind of a disgrace for me to ask for more.

     This may be another day of lonesomeness, still have to be thankful for this life. My hope and prayer is a blessing of compassion from above to heal this broken heart. In spite of all these pains, I prefer to struggle even if it means heart aches everyday. Any ways everything under the sun is vanity. I guess it is true what they say that in every laughter is equals to a hundredfold tears of sadness of man...